feeling much better

Hi Everyone, Thanks for your lovely comments on my previous posts (especially Linda- that was lovely :) ) I have had a great weekend- friday night i stayed at Jen's and then went to the Autism crop day on Saturday- as usual i didnt get much done- but it was good to catch up with everyone.. see Jen's blog to see the amazing rffle prizes se won!! Today has been a very weird day- was supposed to take Abbie (my 10 year old sis) to bowling but the car wouldnt start- two hours later i had to rush out and help a friend in need.. i got back to my house at 6ish and my sister was already in her P-J's so i couldnt take her bowling... so i went to Jens for a coffee (and a feed- yum- hehehe) and now i am at another friends house just about to watch Grey's! I have the day off tomorrow- no idea what i am planning to do.. i am NOT going to sleep all day- just makes things worse i feel.. and like you al have said i am the only one ho can ultimatley change things..! :) Linda, i am in desperate need for ideas for my shades of grey- no idea what to do!! HELP!! Anyway, have a great week everyone.. Thanks for reading luv vik xxx

If you've ever had depression you know how i feel...

Its horrible having depression and i think it is like a disease- same as cancer. Its a hole you just cant get out of, and you dont know which way your life is heading. I just dont know what to do with myself, writing about it seems to help.

12 Hour Crop

MATCHBOXES.. completed Hello, Its been a while, and i thought i would take the opportunity to write a quick post- i'm at jenny's, so i can upload the photo's of what i did yesterday. At the Scrapbook Shop we had a 12 hour crop from 9am-9pm.. it was a tiring day- but i had a great time. In the whole 12 hours- i managed to complete 2 pieces of art- my matchboxes!! Quite sad really- everyone else had about 10 layouts completed and all i came back with was two bloody matchboxes.. I thought i would have finished all my layouts- but no.. I think because we had morning tea, lunch, afternoon tea and dinner i didnt do half as much as i should have done (my excuse anyway! lol). I have had a few days off work- and am feeling quite relaxed- i am NOT looking forward to work on Tuesday though. I have been so so busy lately- everything happens at once!! lol. Social life is hectic- havent been able to see some of my friends- havent been home since last week. Anyways, i am balbbing on and on so i better go... think dinner is calling me. Have a good public holiday everyone. luv vik xxx

A promise to myself.. oh and THAT paperclip.

Hello All,

It has been a while since i last blogged- and no, i havent managed to figure out how to put photo's on from home, so i've been doing lots of scrapping but nothing to put on the blog to show for myself.

The last few weeks have been pretty full on- lots of classes- went to Emily Falconbridge's class last Thursday- which was good. Then i went to Linda Baldock's shellec and stamping classes- i had such a ball with them.

I am blogging to make a promise to myself- i am going to LOOSE weight- i have been so depressed these last few months that i am putting it down to lack of communication with everyone and my weight. I have a fantastic best friend who is very supportive- so im going to loose weight-and exercise. I gave up umpiring because i found it too much to handle. I have taken up beach vollyball and bowling- so tues,wed and thrusday nights are full of exercise- all i have to do now is go walking and watch what i put in my mouth! Its going to to be difficult but i am going to TRY- something i am not very good at doing! I am sick of being fat- and having such a low self esteem because of it! So, by my 21at birthday (September 4th) i am going to put all my effort into loosing at least 15-20kgs!!

On a different note, i have been in hospital the last few days.. (dont laugh when i tell you this..but) i swallowed a paperclip on Thursday at 11.30am during a good laugh with friends at work. I was chewing it and it went down my throat- i thought i could bring it back up with water- but that just pushed it dowm. 5 minutes later i was at RPH with wheezing and had x rays done. It was in my stomach and at the time i had no pain- so the doctorsaid i could go home. I started to walk back to my work and i had horrible stabbing pains in my tummy-so i thought of going home. I went to visit a friend at Joondalup and ended up going to Emergency at 5pm- it was so busy that i went bowling. During my third bowling round i was in terrible pain so i went back to Emergency. They got me through pretty quick and i had xrays, drips, lots of wires all over me, ct scans etc.. the surgeon came down to see me and said he wasnt sure if the paperclip (that was open- so sharp end) had perforated or could perforate my bowel. The other doctors gathered around and thought i would need surgery. They pumped morphine into me and about three hours later i was admitted onto a ward. The surgeon was still wondering if i should have surgery. They decided to keep me in overnight and moniter the situation in the morning. By friday, i had morphine overload and was vomiting all over the place- they gave me three anti nauseuos injections- nothing seemed to work. To cut a long story kinda short (sorry girls) i was given enemas and heaps of laxative crap and it worked- i passed the paperclip (very painfuly) at about 1am this morning. Surgeon said if i ate my breakfast and kept it down i could go home!! So three nights in hospital and a paperclip later i was out of there- i was so glad.

I think i have overdone it today though- i went to see Jen and then went to a friends place for the afternoon.. I am feeling quite tired and worn out now, so best go and get some sleep. I'm off to Jen's tomorrow to help her with the kids and watch all the greys anatomy DVDS!! YAY- something to look forward to.

chow for now.. luv vik xxx

The Weekend...

Well its Saturday night- and i should be out on a hot date tonight- but instead i have been watching the footie.. GO THE EAGLES!!! So happy they won. I went Scrapbooking last night and did not leave til 2.30am as Jo and Jen had work to do- when i got home i was stupid enough to read my book so i didnt end up getting to sleep til 3.30-4am. I was up at 10am- mum and dad got back from Kalbarri yesterday and Abbie had a present to give me. It was a cute Necklace. Today i have spent most of the day at Jen's.. just chilling out- watching movies. I am going to watch "Five fingers" so better go. Tomorrow i am meeting up with a guy i met on Wednesday night- he's called Adam and is 25.. We are going to Hillary's for lunch and a coffee... watch this space!! :)

At the Scrapbook Shop...

Well today i got up early and went to the Scrapbook Shop in Ellenbrook to do the Tuesday morning crop. Lennie was there and a lady called Robyn. I had a great time catching up with Lennie and Jenny and creating. I had to complete an altered art piece and the theme was "yellow pages," so i created a mini book-and painted it yellow and black and did a-c of the alphabet in there and incorperated the real yellow pages in there. It looks ok- Jen likes it. We had a nice lunch and i walked across to the shops to look for a netball skirt for tonight- (first night if netball) and they dont have any!! Was very dissapointed they dont stock adults skirts. Anyway, enough blabbering- must get ready for tonight. Luv always vik xxx

Happy Easter

Hi Its been ages since i last blog'd. The reason behind this is pure laziness!!lol.. not really. I haven't been able to upload any photo's onto my blog- theres something wrong with the connection (too slow i think- tried convincing the folks to get broadband- not worked as yet!!). Hence, my last blog i couldnt put the photo's up!! Hapy Easter to you all, i hope you all had a blast.. my Easter has been.. quiet. I didnt get any easter eggs or chocolate- which i wasnt suprised at- my folks are away n Kalbarri at the moment so no choc for me:( The house is a lot quieter without them all here- but it can get pretty lonely and boring (but i am soo happy there is no mum around to tell me to get out of bed- lol) I thought i had better blog as Cath must be getting bored and there is nothing to read!! I haven't scrapped since last Friday- and i have wanted too but i have been kinda busy. On Friday i went around to my friends house- he had a get together. It was fun catching up with old friends and seeing Clare again. I caught a taxi back to my house at 3am and couldnt sleep til 5!! So i was lazy on Saturday and slept til 5pm.. i know it was a long ime- but my body must have needed it! I went to Sam's for dinner on Sat night and it was soo good i went there last night too for dinner. Tonight i have been invited around to my Best friends house for dinner and to watch the Apprentice. I havent seen Jen since last Wednesday and it seems like forever- so it will be good to catch up. I am reading a few books at the moment, the one i love is called"be Happy" its about changing the way you think and your life. In one chapter it looks at living in the NOW, here is what it says: All you have is now, The measure of our peace of mind and the measure of our personal effectiveness are determined by how much we are able to live in the present moment. Regardless of what happened yesterday and what might happen tomorrow, NOW is where you are. In a nutshell... Time doesn't really exist, except as an abstract concept in your head. The present moment is the only time you have. Make something of this moment! None of us has a guarantee that we will be here tomorrow. Now is all we have. Have a great Easter everyone.. Love Always Vicki xx